Yep, another monthly recap as we’re getting closer to year end. Can you believe it? I sure can’t. I feel like time was stolen from me or something, as I just haven’t done any of the things I was set to do this year.

I’m not mad September is over, it wasn’t be best month anyway. It was never going to be, but then life threw some extra sh@t on top of it, for good measure.

Some ideas of what went on? Here you go:

• My trip to London was way too emotional, for no specific reasons. It drained me. It also lead to resentment.
• By the way, can you kill a solicitor?
• Thankfully my partner’s medical thing went well. My stress level didn’t.
• My trip to see my dad was 0 fun, as we had yet another funeral to plan for. This piece tells you a lot about the things that could have gone in my head!
• Thankfully, my medical thing went well, as well. Pffff what a month.
• After all that try to chill or just be thankful the month to be over!

No worries, the month is over now and as I’m writing all of this, I may sound a little bitter but I’m actually 100% better.

However, I am torn between how I felt, how I wanted to feel and how I feel now. Torn or maybe unsure of what I want to achieve, what I truly want, torn between ‘f@ck it all‘ and ‘no, you have responsibilities‘.

There isn’t a single answer, there isn’t a single path. There are so many questions anyway.

Nugget of wisdom: Put yourself first & stand your ground

There is always going to be something thrown in your way, to keep you off your tracks. It might be something fun like your friend’s wedding or just a party. It might be something less fun. For me it has been funerals, one on top of the other.

But I’m done. I’ve been dried out of tears, I’ve been exhausted emotionally for too long.

And my recommendation to you is to check and identify what is it that life is throwing your way, to keep you from achieving your goals. Tackle these one by one & head-on and become indomitable.

Word of the day (please remember I’m French!) is Indomitable: strong, brave, and impossible to subdue, defeat or frightened.

Achievements and Gratefulness

Despite the above, I’m extremely grateful the medical things, my partner and I had, went well. It was extremely stressing, as we are just not used to having to deal with such things.

Since I had to be home because of these, I managed to get a couple follow ups done for the apartment. The CMV has been repaired and hopefully this 5th intervention will be a charm.

I prepared my quarterly invoices in advance and that is something to rejoice!

Meditation has helped with everything. Although it has also let me to dark places. I didn’t think there were more to explore at this point.

I’ve started doing face yoga recently. I never knew face yoga was so much about posture and now I wish I started earlier.

What I’m reading

I’m reading 5 different books at the same time and I’m a bit lost. Sorry

Looking forward

Halloween! I just can’t yet decide which country I’ll be in for it and it does change everything.

Here you have it. My quick recap for September. As I had mentioned, I didn’t expect it to be great but I didn’t expect it to be like this either. Honestly I still have to process.

Hope your September was better and paved the way to a glorious October!